Some of my regulars, like G’ma Shirley’s Clematis did not have a good blooming season this year. I watered them, but it has just been so very dry! Some, like the climbing roses and these daisey’s have been productive and gorgeous. The stargazer lilies in front are miraculous! (Photos to follow) Yet I can’t get the basil to grow!
I take what I can get! Thank goodness for these past few days of rain!
I have been doing pretty well. I’ve been concentrating on one day at a time even while making travel plans! I am certainly in a much better place than I was a few weeks ago… yet there are moments when the sadness creeps back in. As it did last night while enjoying myself among friends. He would have loved the whole evening. I was sorry for him to be missing it. He is missing so much.
Bill turned me onto a YouTube series where Jimmy Buffett is interviewed by his daughter, Delaney, “Songs You Don’t Know by Heart.” During the pandemic he asked his fans to tell him which songs they wanted to hear about. They discuss each song in a separate short video. I was surprised to hear that Jimmy Buffett only played Jim’s favorite song six times on stage. I have heard it so many more, “The Captain and the Kid.” He knew them all, of course, and sung along with gusto, as one does, but this song captured his heart. It is a love letter from a grandson to his grandfather. He loved it the way he loved The Clancy Brother’s “The Dutchman.”
Similar themes, I suppose. As I listened to Jimmy Buffett play his guitar and sing it for his daughter I imagined my Jimmy listening to the words and what they meant to him. And it made me cry for all the things to come for me and our children and our friends that he will miss. That he would have loved. As well as the joy that he would have, that he always did, give us by being there.
I know that I can hold him in my heart and carry on with a good full life. I’m just sorry I have to.